I did it .. Finished my third year

Alhamdulillah..The most gratitude to the Almighty Allah, my Love.

Alhamdulillah.. the feeling of relief when the last exam went well.. Even though, as a whole my final year exam wasn't as I expected, but I don't care anymore. as I know that Exam is not everything  Exam alone doesn't make a good engineer. It is the knowledge that you gain throughout the year more matter.   This is not the saying of backing up my back. This is what I supposed to think from the beginning.

I did it :)

Alhamdulillah... third year is finished. that means that, I'm getting into my final year soon after summer vacation. and next year, many faces will be no more in the class since they have finished B.Eng. What a long journey to become an Engineer. But, I am so grateful that Allah gave me chance to study in UK. I really love this country so much.

I have got a kind of mixed feeling now.. I'm happy but not entirely happy :) There are many more challenges to come. Life is not just about getting freedom of finishing exam. The sad part is my best friend, Fahad Shabbir is already finished his B.Eng study and moving to London for the work. What an awkward feeling when you used to be so closed as 3 people, and now 1 people leave. It is so much fun to have a best friend, but when the time to leave comes, that would be your saddest part. That's friendship that we never can buy.

Done with 3rd year, then what? Throughout this semester, I have ignored many bad feeling because I know that I have to do well for this year. I have been pretending that I am okay, been pretending that I am not sad, but now soon after the exam, all the feeling is chasing me. That really made me thing what is actually the meaning of life? I can throw away as much feeling as I can when I have to focus on something, but when that something gone, then what? It is not as simple as that.

I used to give advice for those who tell me that they are not strong, and I simply can give so many speech as in I will be strong if I were in their shoes. In fact, those who seek for advice and had faced it is the winner. I'm not yet a winner. feel so looser when my turn has come and I feel like turning back. What a life.

What comes to my mind today is "life is like give and take" and life has been always like give and take. It just me who just noticed it now. It is like , when Allah gives you so much happiness last time, this time Allah gives so much sadness. When Allah gives you someone, then Allah took someone that you already had. It's a kind of balancing. happy and sad take turn to feel your heart. Sometimes, Allah makes you sad, then Allah makes you happy, then sad, then happy, and the cycle goes on...

But, at the end of the day, the real happiness is when we all managed to get into the heaven. That's the ultimate dream of all the people in the world.. Really wanna see all the people that I love leave happily ever after.

And now, it is the time for me to have a break from reading the engineering book :) Time to read other kind of book :) Time to make my time useful as I am already an adult. I have to really make my time useful for the akhirat sake and dunia sake and for Allah and human beings.

Life is give and take. Life would be so hard if people are selfish.