HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAY HALIM

Hari ni 27 February, 2 hari lepas birthday adik saya, Abdul Halim Nasir..

umur Halim dah 13 tahun. wahhh cepatnya masa berlalu, kenapa aku rasa aku static ja tapi adik2 aku begitu cepat membesar. my adik is no longer budak2.. he is teenager now. and I used to spend much time with him when he was in primary school. now, when he started to study in borading school, he is the one which i spent time the least. this is so sad. i still remember my last day at home before flying back to uk back in 2012 i guess, he was spending full day with me at home, we did so many activities together. how awkward i feel now when i could only spend few days with him in last year :((

that is why i really wanted to be at Malaysia sometimes because i really wanna be in touch with all of my siblings, and family. i am overly attached to people i loved. i am that kind of person. and here in uk, i am too attached to my husband like budak2 until sometimes i do feel that i am not being independent. and this is not a good thing.

however, this is just about living a life. in term of study, i am able to rely on myself because my husband does not understand what am i doing. he is studying something else at different university. so, i am happy that at least i could rely on myself, not totally on him.

hhmm... back to the story, i am so sad that i have not wished halim his birthday because he is at boarding school now. but, few days ago, i received a good new about him that he is qualified to represent PERAK for marathon at national level in SABAH :) i know that he is very happy because he really wanted to fly! hahaha... i am happy for you halim. kakak is so proud of you. you and abang have been so awesome. sampai sekolah berebut nak enrol both of you.

also recieved a news that halim wanna change school. i know that this gonna be a big headache to the teachers in your current school as you are their hope to represent your school name. but, i am supporting you to change school based on many uncomfortable stories that i heard before! go, change school! they will care about you better!

okay, and lastly, as kakak sulung, i really wanna all my adiks rajin solat, rajin baca quran dan hormat mak abah. thats it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HALIM!!

I LOVE YOU!

Iphone 5S Ashraf :))

Dear bloggy,  Iphone 5s ni milik adik saya, muhammad Ashraf :)) 

Saya happy sebab lepas ni saya boleh facetime dengan family di rumah :)) saya rindu semua orang teruatramanya adik kecik saya, arif :)

saya harap ahsraf happy dapat gadget yang bernilai RM2400.00 ni :))

yang penting, jangan lupa pada Allah, Allah yang maha member rezeki kepada kita. kita sebagai hamba perlu selalu bersyukur dengan kekurangan kita sebab kita nak jadi hamba Allah yang baik.

Tetapi jangan sesekali kita terlibat dengan kerja-kerja zalim seperti yang banyak berlaku di Malaysia. sebagai rakyat, aku dah sampai tahap tak tahan dah dengan betapa zalim nya sistem yang ada di tangan manusia ni. Manusia sesungguhnya sangat rakus dengan duit. manusia yang rakus akan Allah balas di akhirat kelak, kita sebagai rakyat tak perlu tuntut sebab Allah maha Adil, Allah yang akan balas. yakin dengan Allah yang maha adil. sesedih mana pun kita dengan sistem yang meaniaya kita, kita kena ingat kita ada Allah. hari ni aku rasa annoyed sebab aku rasa teraniaya.

tapi, back to the story, harap hanphone yang canggih ni dapat digunakan sepenuhnya. dan jaga baik-baik tau ap! 

What a life - some reflections of annoying things.

what a life.

today, i feel so annoyed with many things/people/systems! i feel annoyed because people are bothering me, systems are "zalim" and things are happening fishily in front of me. 

life is always up and down, and you got to meet so uncountable kinds of people! you better be sabar as sabar is a sword! here are some reflections!

First, one thing that i've learnt the most about it is that "you just dont expect people like the way you thnik" kadang-kadang untuk benda yang jelas mana betul, mana salah, dan you tahu cara you fikir tu betul, then you should be happy, at least you have got knowledge that makes you think that way.

but, in the case where you people are having conflicts of ideas on something, you just quickly reset your brain and say to yourself that those people are not you, they are different human beings, been raised up with totally different background. that's it. 

the second thing that i learnt the most is that please don't think and expect anyone perfect, perfect like "wow, i like to be friend with you, you're always make my life okay/better" ... seriously, no. only Rasulullah is perfect. therefore, when you are in a closed relation with someone, be it friends or relatives, you just bear in mind that everything will not turn as perfect as you wanted it to be. 

The third thing about life is, if there is people A who talk bad about other people B in front of you, you better just stay away from people A. people A is more dangerous than people B, indeed, sometimes. seriously. i am grateful that so far i am surrounded with educated people who seldomly "mengumpat" . Mengumpat without a legal purpose is so so resembles how bad you are in practising Islam. seriously.

have you ever met someone that dislike you by default. from my experience back in SMK, there is one, or two, or three. back then, i was so noob, and totally clueless of why the hell these people dislike me. and you know what, out of those people, all of them are already becoming my friends expect for one. so, i may concluded that, these people dislike me due to some reasons "ada yang cakap sebab aku pandai dari dorang" or what ever reasons la, i dont care, but the point now is the main problem is you guys belum matang lagi masa tu :) so, i forgive you guys :))

but,  the only one who still dislike me. lets flashback a abit, she was my senior at school, one i got into the school with a pure heart for the sake of studying to achieve my ambition, suddenly out of knowhere i smell some kind of jealousy that comes from her! yes, thats the only reason that i can think of! and i just carry on my life and becoming one of the best students. last year, me and my ex schoolmate bumped into her in a shopping complex, shockingly she talked to my friend like i never exist! she did not even look at me. she pretending that i wasnt there. what! then, i came back, i reflect! then recently i decided to email her and say a bit like " i never have anything to do with you but you seems dislike me, i dont care if people dislike me, but i care if i made wrong to people, so if i made wrong to you back in 10 years ago, please forgive me" after writing that, i feel so relief because i am so sure that , i got nothing to do with her, i just know her nama and her face! to be honest, as i grow 24 now, i have learnt so many things about life, and i just dont care about things that not gonna help me to get into syurga Allah.

i tried to do the best things to not troubling people as i dont like people troubling me. whatever i dont like people doing to me, i will totally avoid from doing so. and please people around me, if you ever notice that i have weakness in something, please dont let me jump into the weakness and ruining my other important things in life.

the last thing about life that i wanna write today is : have you ever met people that search for you when they are in need and leave you/ forget you/ dont care about you when there are happy/ no need your help anymore/ have lots of other friends/stable/ ? if you dont have one, you are lucky because people around you appreciated your existence whenever they happy or not happy. but me, i have few. but,  it's okay. those people might not know the importance of jaga hati orang lain. and these people may having friends that only can hang out when they are happy and started to find someone else when they are sad. whatever it is. i dont care so long as i dont do that to people.

the big lesson to me is, your husband is your best friend ever. he is the one who never jealous of your big success, the person who never envy, who always support you, the person who always wanna look you happy, yes, your husband is your true friends!